i find it really encouraging to read others' blogs to know you're not the only one trying.
so i decided it might help if i post this here(:
just yesterday, God spoke to me through quiet time.
Gerlaine ever prayed for me and sensed that evangelism could be my area of gifting.
problem is, the plain and simple truth is that i'm most fearful of that.
i wouldn't hesitate asking my friends to service and all.
however when there isn't a pastor or leader around, i'm most afraid to speak up.
i've this irrevocable fear of saying something wrong or not viable or ruining God's reputation while sharing the gospel.
and as a result i think too much of how to craft my words in a way in order for them to sound plausible.

so last night when i was really lethargic, i just thought of it and whispered a short prayer.
i questioned God that if my area of gifting was really evangelism, why do i seem like i'm the weakest at it?
and if it is true, i asked Him to path the way.
however i just couldn't sleep, although i was extremely tired already.
then i was led to read 26 january's daily bread (woopsie i think i've lagged a lot but nevermind that isn't the point).
i saw this verse and my spirit was lifted.

Jesus said:
When the Helper comes, whom I shall send to you from the Father, the Spirit of truth who proceeds from the Father, He will testify of Me. - John 15:26.

how reassuring!
we are called to share the good news, but we aren't responsible for someone's acceptance or rejection of Christ.
cos it isn't our job the convict someone of sin - that's the Holy Spirit's responsibility!
so we don't need to speak with wise words or anything, cos ultimately, it's the Spirit that does the convincing(:

in Christ, i'm an overcomer!
i'm gonna conquer these fears and save the world, 1 person at a time, with my Hero!
i think i shall end of with this quote from what i read(:

The Spirit's role is to convict
The world of their sin
So they will seek forgiveness and
Be cleansed and changed within(: